But I truly madly deeply believe that despite of everything, people are still inherently good and everyone deserves at least that famous second chance. Each and everyone has potential: they deserve everything good that life has to offer. Except for one person. Whom no one can actually like, let alone love. And if something good happens to them they most definitely didn't, well first of all deserve it, but also they didn't work for it – it just happens. Like that one The Smiths song (or pretty much all of them, but let's use just one as an example in this case): "you just haven't earned it yet, baby / you must suffer and cry for a longer time". That's exactly how I feel what this person should do: suffer and cry just a little bit more. And yes, that person is me.
I know it makes no sense. That I think the most notorious tyrants must have had some nice qualities about them but I am like a spawn of Satan. Well, actually for the most of the time I see myself as a good person who never litters, says thank you, is nice to everyone, who keeps the door open for others, who's easy-going and always ready to support others. But it's still there, somewhere in the back of my head. It's a constant project, to try to let go of these poisonous ideas. It's not good for you. I try to think it's way better than being mean to others but then again you spend time with yourself 24/7 so I wouldn't be so sure.
I try to learn from the masters: from the people that ooze positive energy. I don't think reading some self-help book by a random person you've never seen or heard of would make much of a difference for me. I look up for those I kind of know already, those to whom it comes naturally and who seem to live how they preach. Like Amy Poehler. I wouldn't be as sunny and bubbly even if I got rid of these ideas but how can I claim to be a positive person if everything I say to believe in applies to everyone else except for the one you're supposed to love the most? I recently posted this gif set on Tumblr:
No truer words have been said. Really. But life's all about learning and self-improvement, right? Like said, you're never too late to late to learn new things. Like a little self love. I should probably start my days by chanting the latter part of the send gif as an affirmation. Since we're on the topic of how inspirational Amy Poehler is in so many ways, let's watch this video, too.
And as I really want to take this more into the direction of some inspirational words and how you, too, deserve a bit more love in your life, especially from yourself and about general gushing about Amy, can I just point out here at the end, how much I want this book by her to be out like now. Or yesterday. Yes please, indeed.
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